The first day that winter breaks on the back of spring and the daffodils push through the frozen dirt is the most beautiful thing. It is the brightness that makes us throw off our coats and put on shorts that will leave us chilly all day, but we will ignore. It calls the most reclusive out of their dorms and there is laughter and sunglasses and goosebumps and hope.
College is the most wonderful on these days, when we are all happy to be just where we are. Today, sitting in a pack of smiling young adults who had decided to be kids again, life froze. My heart seized in the most unexpected panic because I suddenly saw the inertia of it all.
Tomorrow I will schedule classes for my junior year of college, the brightest time of my life so far. The memories, fulfillment, and friendships I have found here have redefined me. Yesterday, it seems I was a blinking brave freshman, ready to build and create a life.
Now, so much has happened, so much has changed. Nearly all for the better, but all too fast. The barreling of time, and the coming end of my “discovery period” is terrifying.
Having a moment in which you can see the utter smallness of time, and the grandness of your God is shaking. Surely this must go on, and instead of college being the discovery time of life, what if life is the discovery period of eternity.
Instead of focusing on building a future for my lifetime, I pray I can make a change for the kingdom. May the small and momentary space I take on this Earth, make me proud in my eternity elsewhere.
Then I heard the voice of the Lord saying, “Whom shall I send? And who will go for us?” And I said, “Here am I. Send me!” Isaiah 6:8
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Welcome! I'm a wife, mama-to-be, foster mom, fourth year music teacher, and Jesus follower, and am chronically curious about just about everything. Join me as I explore the calling God has for my family's story.
"I am the Vine, you are the Branches. If you abide in me and I in you, you will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing."